It was my junior year in high school when I first realized I was a lesbian. This girl named Kayla I had been friends with ever since before I was 5. We did everything best friends do. Hardly a day went by when we didn't see each other. But all at once I got these feelings about Kayla that were so intense I can't even describe. But even though Kayla and I could always talk to each other, but I felt like I'd lose my best friend if I told her even I was gay! I kept my crush secretive for about a year. I already had a short relationship with another woman, Amy. It wasn't that serious. Kayla never even suspected I was gay. After Amy and I broke up, I couldn't hold my secret from anyone any longer. First I sat down with my mother and had a long talk with her about my sexuality. She said she still accepted me, because that element didn't seem to matter to her. After that I called Kayla. I told her I was gay and that I loved her. She said she didn't want to leave me because I was gay, but she said one thing only, "Why didn't you tell me you loved me?" I told her I was afraid of losing my best friend. Kayla confessed she had had feelings for me in the past. Today we are married. We have been for about five years. Coming out for me was difficult-it took a year! But because of the way things are now, I see it was worth it.
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